Why do I feel this way?
I have been reading up on depression and have found that in most cases there is something that caused the onset, but I have not yet been able to figure out what triggered it in my life. Perhaps its from my sparatic childhood with inconsistent friends, and lack of social life. Maybe it is my inability to figure out where I fit in, whatever it is, it is hurting me in places I don't want it to. I fear that it is hurting the one relationship that I don't want to hurt, but since he is the closest and really the only person that I talk to as a really close friend he is the one that I lash out on. I want to stop but don't know what to do anymore. I want this all to just go away and let me live my life with out any more depression.